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Love of My Life

Yes, he’s finally come. That explains also why I haven’t been able to update my blogs lately.

It’s been a long time I almost forgot what it feels like to have someone beside me when I sleep at night and to wake up with a familiar face to greet you. Now I realized how difficult it has been for me. I haven’t noticed it, or maybe I simply refused to acknowledge how lonely and burdened I felt during our separation knowing I had no choice but to bear everything.

Life is indeed beautiful. It is difficult, but that only makes it more worth living…

Missing Our Pet Cat

As I posted a couple of months ago, my daughter, Mika, was bitten by our beloved pet Cat, Pippa when she unknowingly rolled over the poor cat on the bed. Naturally, we went to the nearest clinic so Mika could have anti-rabies shots. After that, much as we love Pippa, we knew that we couldn’t keep her in the house any more, lest she bites any one of us again.

By the beginning of the summer vacation, my kids and I left to spend summer in the province. I endorsed Pippa to my brother’s capable hands. As soon as we got back after a month, I noticed that our beloved cat was no longer around. I knew then that she was gone. I hated to admit it but I really miss her. Though sending her away means I no longer have to worry about prescription pet medications, it doesn’t ease the loneliness of losing someone I’ve considered family for 4 years. Wherever you are, Pippa, I hope you’re in good hands..

The Feeling Was Gone

 

Yesterday, one of my closest high school friends sent me a text message. It seems like she met up with an ex-boyfriend. I could tell by her messages that she was relieved but regretful. I asked her about it and she said I was right, she had mixed feelings about the meet-up.

She said she had waited for the meet-up for a very long time and the anticipation was filled with anxiety. She had loved the guy for as long as she could remember and for some twist of fate, they had not ended up together. She got married. He got married and they didn’t see each other for quite some while. Until she received a text message from an unlisted number. It seems like the guy took the pains of finding out a way to get in touch with her.

Though unsure whether meeting up with him was a good idea or not, she agreed to it. She said she wanted to know whether the guy still has a power over her.

And so, they met up.

It was just like meeting a long lost friend. She was happy to see him after all this time. She was also extremely relieved to finally know that she could resist his charm now. However, she still feels regretful that they didn’t end up together adding a ‘what-if’ to her growing pile.

So, what could a friend, such as myself, say in a situation like that.. They were probably not meant to be together. But if they are, probably not here and not now…

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Loving Life Despite the Weather

 

It’s only been two months but the hot weather seems like going on forever. I chose to ignore it but the fact is that the weather gets in my usual daily activities. For one, I cannot leave the house except very early in the morning and very late in the afternoon. And it isn’t easy to arrange my comings and goings.

What more, noontime is.. impossibly uncomfortable. There seems to be nowhere to go to find even the least of comfort. Taking a bath is the only activity that will keep someone refreshed and we can’t take a bath the whole day. So, we have to savor every single second of it and make it last for as long as possible.

I know it feels like the summer will drag on forever but sooner or later, the rainy season will come and we will enjoy the short transition from the uncomfortably hot nights to uncomfortably flooded days.

But after all is said and done, waking up in the morning is still a great blessing we should be thankful for, and I am..

So, let’s brace ourselves, face the heat head-on and look forward to the colder and wet months ahead..

She’s Losing It

My friend, Janine* had had a problem with her husband for a very long time. She believes that he has another woman and even though he keeps denying it, even we, can feel that Janine’s suspicions are true. In view of that, the soundest advice I could give her was to either accept the situation and endure the pain of having to share her husband or get out of it and suffer the consequences of a broken marriage.

She chose to keep her marriage. But when his husband, who keeps denying having an affair, started to ignore her, she began to entertain text mates. It seems harmless at first, until she told me that she went out with her textmate, who, I learned was a personal acquaintance of their family, and DID IT. I wanted to berate her but I was wise enough to keep my mouth shut. After all, we’re of the same age. She knew what she was doing when she did it. Still, I warned her. It was the least I could do.

Months went by and her relationship with her husband did not improve. She and her kids already moved out of the house and stayed with her mother. But there was still no formal split up because her husband still denied his affair though a lot of people claimed seeing them together.

Then, one day, a guy we knew from our past came and expressed his undying love to Janine. It seems like he’s been in love with my friend forever but wasn’t given any chance to tell her and so married someone else, but is now separated from his wife. Now that he found Janine again, he considers it the works of fate and that they were meant for each other. So, he courted Janine the most romantic and traditional way and made her feel so special, then went back abroad where he works.

Even from out of the country, the guy continued to court Janine. But based on what I hear from my friend, she wasn’t ready to have an affair with him and my conclusion was that she really didn’t like him though she likes what he did for her and how he made her feel.

Then, two months ago the guy came home from abroad and wished to see Janine. She went out to meet him and DID IT despite the fact that she doesn’t like him.

I have no right to judge my friend or anyone. The least I could do is give advice when it is asked. I told her to keep it together because I feel that she’s losing it.

 My friend needs help but she wouldn’t listen to me or to anyone else. I can only pray that she find peace and learn to accept life the way it is..

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Among My First Loves

St. Stephen’s Academy was where I studied in high school. It was June 1987 the first time I set foot in its campus. I was 12 years old. I was still too young to know the significance of that stage in my life, my transition from the little girl I was to the lady I would become.

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 I didn’t know then, that the four years I would spend in this school would determine the kind of person I would be in the future. I didn’t realize how important this place was to me at the time. All I knew was that it was a place I needed to go to every day, five days a week, ten months a year and for four years.

I didn’t have a way of knowing the things about to happen. The wonderful times I would spend with my friends, my victories, my failures, my disappointments, my frustrations, my broken hearts, from the most to the least significant things, but which would make me what I am today.

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 Looking back now, I finally acknowledged the role this school had played in my life. And how beautiful the life I lived while studying in my alma mater, the St. Stephen’s Academy.

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 To all Stephenians, young and old… Salute to all of us!

The Greatest Love of All

 

I spent the Holy Week watching one of my favorite movies of all times, The Passion of the Christ.

As I watch Jesus being scourged at the pillar, I realized how evil men can be. How were they able to hurt another person that way? Even if he wasn’t the Lord and just an ordinary man, how can we inflict such pain and humiliation to another human being? Do we really have it in us? That thirst for blood and that love for violence?

As I cried while I watched Jesus being crucified, I murmured over and over again how sorry I am for committing sins. I know I would sin again as I don’t pretend to be the perfect Christian, it makes me feel better owning the sins I committed and knowing that deep in my heart, I will try my hardest to be the daughter the Lord wants me to be and to be worthy of His love, the greatest love of all..  

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Memories of Holy Weeks Past

Going home in the province during the Holy Week brought back memories of Holy Weeks past.

When I was in high school, I was active in the Catholic church as I was studying in a Catholic school. I remember joining church activities, as, being a member of the choir, I was able to go to various places in our town to perform mass around.

I remember leading the rosary, joining numerous processions and listening to senakulo or the reading of the Passion of Christ which usually starts at Lunes Santo or the Monday after the Palm Sunday. What makes the Holy Week memorable to me was the many times romance began during this season. I remember being accompanied home by a suitor after each activity that I joined.

Well, those were the days…

When Waiting Gets Too Long

 

My husband is supposed to take a vacation on November last year. Needless to say, he isn’t here yet. My friends have always lauded me for being a remarkably patient person, but when the waiting gets too long, it becomes unbearable even for me. I’ve been becoming more and more cranky and grumpy lately.

Now, everyday, I pray to God to grant me more patience, to learn to wait in silence and anticipate for our reunion. I know it wouldn’t be easy for me, but with the Lord’s grace, I will get through it and be in my best when the big day finally arrives.

How Common is Miscommunication?

 

According to love veterans, one of the most common reasons why relationships don’t work out is miscommunication. Couples don’t talk the way they should. Apparently, women usually don’t say what they mean and they don’t mean what they say. They say something when they actually mean another. They usually assume that the guys know, or rather guys should know. Whoever gave them the idea to assume that guys know what they want, well.. I don’t know.

As for guys, most of them hate, and consequently, avoid confrontation. They would rather give in to the girls’ whims than to explain things they think they don’t need to and end up feeling miserable, example of which is accompanying the girls when shopping. Moreover, they would rather keep something hidden than to go through the complicated task of explaining to the girls, example would be talking with an ex even when the meeting was accidental.

Going back to the girls, the problems with them sometimes is that they don’t believe the guys. They want to desperately, but for some reasons they usually end up not believing them anyway. And for the the boys, they believe everything. So, when the girls say ‘I’m fine’ they are ok with that. After all, that’s what the girls say and they can’t see any reason why they shouldn’t believe them.

Well, in this case, I would say it’s not miscommunication, it’s failing to acknowledge the nature of the opposite sex :D

 

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